my grey area

2008-08-27T18:53:00.003+08:00

just some pictures to share from Philwinds goes POP! concert.

looking back

2007-09-08T06:13:00.001+08:00

when i look back at all my older posts, i know i have grown much in the past year.

apologies

2007-09-08T05:46:00.000+08:00

a big SORRY for those who had been checking back on my blog for updates.

i know alot of my friends will wana smack my head when they know my reason why i havent been blogging for eons is because i forgot my blog password. ><

BUT!

i'll definitely be back for more, so please checkl back.
=]

2007-05-30T00:07:00.000+08:00

and needless to say, there will be people i hope to see attending this concert because i've invited afew of you myself.

details:
www.philharmonicwinds.org

tickets can be bought at:
http://www.sistic.com.sg/cms/events/index.html?content=924

okay now, please support!
=D

-

2007-03-30T01:33:00.000+08:00

the pounding of all our hearts;
of all our laughter;

i swear i can't feel them.

sick of life.

2007-03-16T00:59:00.000+08:00

who says the future can't be predicted?
i can predict mine, for the next 1year and 7months at least.
they're gonna be the worst years of my life.

rob me of my freedom.

love..

2007-03-10T06:42:00.000+08:00

the quickest way to receive love is to give love;
the fastest way to lose love is to hold on too tightly;
and the best way to keep love is; to give it wings.

tie me down and lose me,
give me wings to let me stay.

potter

2007-02-08T11:54:00.000+08:00

things to update into your calendar!

on 13.07.07 (13 July 2007);
Harry Potter and the Order of The Phoenix movie release!
the 5th book of the 7 series, don't miss it.

and.......

on 21.07.07 (21 July 2007);

The last book in the series of Harry Potter;

Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows release date!

Pre-orders can already be made at Borders. =DDD

true to urself

2007-02-04T20:46:00.000+08:00

never be anywhere short of being true to yourself.

meaningless

2007-01-31T23:10:00.000+08:00

better off dead.

sigh

2007-01-15T21:25:00.000+08:00

sometimes i really don't know what life brings for me
we get so busy with work
day after day
routine-bound.
life is fucken meaningless.

i need a breakthrough.

hamster craze

2007-01-03T18:42:00.000+08:00

xmas

2006-12-26T01:11:00.000+08:00

meet christmas. =]

20

2006-12-13T00:50:00.000+08:00

this is the time
i'm caught in the middle,
between being a teenager and adult
like shufeng said;
welcome to the twenteen club.

bingzhao is 20years old as of 12.12.2006
=]

thanks shuz, daniel and yunqi for the cake and the little notes!
the, uhm... nice.... handwriting there on the box, is xiaobahbah's.

ulysses polo

2006-12-10T11:48:00.000+08:00

emo

2006-11-27T00:02:00.000+08:00

i walked down the path way home this night.
it never felt longer before;
my legs were never this heavy.

i never felt this lonely.

Ulysses platoon 4 section 3

2006-11-26T12:56:00.000+08:00

Ulysses Platoon 4, Section 3.

the order of the phoenix

2006-11-22T00:54:00.000+08:00

the excitement i can't contain!

new stuff.

2006-11-14T00:59:00.000+08:00

ugly.

mine!

mich.

2006-11-09T22:48:00.000+08:00

i don't know how many girls will actually read my blog;
but here's it anyway,
a girl-friend of mine is selling some stuffs on her blog
i'm helping her publicise

so if you're a girl and happen to blog-hop into here,
please go browse; who know you might find something you like?
=]

www.michellified-.blogspot.com
(haha, "michellified"; dont become one though)
=x

Ulysses

2006-11-08T22:16:00.000+08:00

move like lightning
sound like thunder
we move, we fly, our spirits high
Ulysses platoon 4
SIBEI ZAI.

=D

genkai.

2006-10-29T22:20:00.000+08:00

i really tried my best.
i've reached my limit.
i'm really sorry.

out of training.

brother and me

2006-10-07T21:47:00.000+08:00

brother and me.

2006-09-29T19:50:00.000+08:00

first book out. at home.

spoilt

2006-09-07T01:05:00.000+08:00

i feel so spoiled.
knowing my enlistment, my parents have been pampering me so much!
people i love too!

I LOVE YOU ALL!
=DD

just take a look. i've never had this kinda record.

to daddy and mommy : I'll be fine, please do not worry about me.

replies to my tags!

FYE!: hey bro. no jabs taken ><>

ANGEL: haha, i think so too. i don't usually exercise. i will enjoy it i hope. =]] and thanks for the sms! =]

BENJI: you guys are my God-forgotten siblings bro. =] love. and i'll take care in NS, no worries.

RETTZ: hey carrot! =]]

JOLIE: hey jolie! i didnt know you knew my blog url. thanksthanks.. good luck for the concert on the 16th. please hang in there taking in all that kinda shit from shitty people. stay strong! =]]

GIN: hey gin.. may i know who are you?

SHU: yeah, life still goes on. haha, what potentials? ><

DEREK: i'll be fine cous! thanks. and i'm already BOTAK. haha =D

JIAWEI: yeahh.. always bumping into you. =]]

BENJI^OMG: heyy =] lol, that was damn malu-ed. but it was good fun, hilarious! haha, yeah, look after , me in army too if possible ok! =]

LOUIS: i will lilbro. =]]

WINSTON: hey god-bro! be nice to god mom ok! dont make her upset! polarbreast! hahaha.. i'll miss you and all the others sosososo much! ><

MAX: bro, i'll save the last for you. (save the best for the last) ^^ haha, and i want choc buffet, not icecream. ><>

no-hair day

2006-09-06T02:13:00.000+08:00

had alot of fun out today
thanks my bros and those who came today.

they say a picture say a thousand words
im sure these say much more than just words.
=]]]

and yes, my hair's GONE!

the departure

2006-09-03T06:02:00.000+08:00

the entry is solemnly posted to honour a cherished friend and brother of mine
Koh Wen Bin, who passed away on the 31st August 2006.

reminiscing upon the past;
the times that we would play about;
the times that we laughed and cried;
the times that we mugged hard for exam even though we're from different streams and different classes;
the times we encouraged each other on and had heart to heart talks;
the times we would smoke under the void decks of bedok south;
the times when nothing else mattered much when we had each other's company.
now that you're gone, i can only relive these memories one by one to feel you here deep in my heart once again, for they are deeply etched in.

i hate myself for not being there for you.
i hate you more for not wanting to talk to me or anyone about it.
i hate you for leaving us so sudden, that we all just brokedown without tears because the fact was too painful and unbearable.
i hate you for doing this to your family and people you love.
above all, i'll still miss you the most!

i wished we didn't drift apart
i wished i was the one who could be there for you.
i've failed bro, i'm sorry!
i really wished you could hear my apologies.

it's just afew more hours, before you'll be cremated
i can only send you thus far, for you have already chose to leave us.
my hearts sinking;
my eyes welling up with tears;
my fingers trembling;
as i pen these heavy thought down with much agony and pain;
to accept the cruel fact that you're gone.
oh how i wished i could be in the picture;
i would not have let this happened, never.

thank you for showing me how fragile life is;
thank you for waking me up and reminding me not to take things and friends around me for granted;
thank you for the memories, for i never once regretted knowing such a great friend sent to me from heaven.

now that you're in God's kingdom;
and eternal peace is upon you
please do miss us.
this is fucken silly cuz i know you'll never get to read this
but fuck, i still want you to know!
because i fucken miss you!!!!!!!!!!!
and i fucken hate myself for not being able to be there for you BRO!

i hope i still can feel you in my heart;
for i believe when a soul departs, the heart still lives;
inside in us.
i don't wana lose this connection bro.

for the last,
where ever you are;
know that my hearts with you.

i love you bro
rest in peace.

respectfully-yours
bingzhao.

my not-so-perfect 10.

2006-08-29T03:37:00.000+08:00

i woke up this morning,
to receive one of the most suprising news in my life.
i'm enlisting on the 7th september 2006.
and with only 10 days left before my enlistment,
i was left there; stunned upon tearing up CMPB's bloody letter.

10days?! i fucken need more than 10 days to prepare myself for army!

not to mention, there are so many things i still wana do before i get into army.
DARNN...
my concert coming up this 16th with philwinds, would mean a miss.
fucked, totally fucked, when i was still so looking forward to performing
stephen melilio's 'Plato's Cave'.

on the other hand, quickly get it over and done with (NS)
wasn't a bad idea as well.
i've been actually looking forward to army life;
but 10 days was just too, unacceptable.

i don't have a choice then
it's there waiting for me, sooner or later.
i need to get into a new phase of my life too.
i'll just have to prepare myself physically and mentally now.
it's BMTC school 2; 130pm at pasir ris and tekongtekongtekong for now!

you know i'll still love you.

comments

2006-08-27T03:21:00.000+08:00

to my 2 good friends that picked up smoking just months ago;
it was quite an unpleasant suprise
so please stop smoking!

"smoking SERIOUSLY harms you and your family"
"smoking makes you young because you'll die young"

i know.. i'm trying too.
i'll put in a bigger effort now.

you know i still do.

just look over your shoulder;
i'll be here always

replies to my tags!

FYE!: hah bro. i love everything of her except her singing!

YANG: i love paris too. =]

publicity one more time

2006-08-26T05:12:00.000+08:00

ONCE MORE

The Philharmonic Family in Concert

The Philharmonic Winds and Philharmonic Youth Winds in concert
Date: Sep 16 (Sat)
Time: 7pm
Venue: Singapore Conference Hall
Conductors: Mr Lin Ah Leck and Dr Alan Lourens
Price: $15 (free seating)

replies to my tags!

AARON! =D : i know, im trying to quit. =]

JIAWEI: heya big boy. =]

ANGEL: yes angel! haha, killer body and looks, but voice *er-hem. she should stick to modelling and being her usual bimbotic self. =]

WP: i only glanced thru her MTV, which song are you referring to? her "turn it on" the beginning is sucha flop pls. her voice is a joke! hahaha. =]

MATT: you should hear me sing instead bro. =D

fair

2006-08-25T00:53:00.000+08:00

God is fair, because Paris Hilton can't sing.

gone so young

2006-08-24T05:35:00.000+08:00

i never dreamt it'd be this way
i've lost any chance for me to say
to say that i miss you, say that i love you
will someone please tell me i'm okay

i wasn't prepared for whats to come
a life made of memories gone so young
and now i'm regretting all i've done
but in your heart
know that i'm with you all along

i never thought that this could go
and take me away from all i know
and leave me to think i'm on my own
but your love will take me, you were the one
who sat through nights, you held me tight
and made sure i'm okay
and i thank you for, the love you gave to me

wherever you go, i will be waiting
whenever you call, i will be there
whatever it takes, i'll make your darkest day so bright
i'm in your heart tonight.

pic.

2006-08-24T01:49:00.000+08:00

courtesy of winnie winsty richie. =D

give me a better concoction;

fire sign and A+blood group.

explains my short-but not hot temper.

sighs.

you

2006-08-23T05:15:00.000+08:00

i thought i'd just let you know
i've filled my head with your voice
and you are everything i hold dearest to.

replies to my tags!

alan: my eyes are fine, dont worry. thanks

nica: yeah, im still the same. still telling lots of VERY FUNNY jokes. (u know i do!) =D

edison: BZ's comp crashed, so not online as often. ><

jiawei: one ticket only? nobody watches concerts ALONE y'know? pls dont flood my tagboard, fruitless attempts. i know ur laughter is deafening.

blur piggy: ehhh.. i SMILED at you ok.

benji: go where bro?

winston: hey godbro, u can call me whatever u want, except nun! >< and yes, more songs to come!

fye: hey =D stop looking around! look at my entries!

shu: i read urs too! u dont seem quite okay these days, pls stay strong. see you at rehearsals!

paranoid

2006-08-22T01:32:00.000+08:00

stop being paranoid;
do not ever doubt a man's determination.

"real greatness, like true soul, is forever"

philharmonic family concert publicity

2006-08-20T13:21:00.000+08:00

The Philharmonic Family in Concert

The Philharmonic Winds and Philharmonic Youth Winds in concert
Date: Sep 16 (Sat)
Time: 7pm
Venue: Singapore Conference Hall
Conductors: Mr Lin Ah Leck and Dr Alan Lourens
Price: $15 (free seating)

there are certain people i wish to see at my concert.
you guys know who you are!
so make ya'selves free by hook or by crook!
=D

advert

2006-08-18T04:32:00.000+08:00

PUBLICITY

FWD:
Please help advertise to your friends or for yourselves if you are interested in this audition.

SSO is currently looking into increasing our pool of local freelancers for the SSO and will be holding an audition for all potential freelancers at the end of September. All forms of western instruments (e.g. saxophones, banjo etc) are welcomed to apply.

If you know anyone (example friends in SAF Bands, PCO, SYO, YST, NAFA, La-Salle or anyone whom is good enough) who would be interested to come for this audition, kindly get them to email their resume to me by the 23rd of August. I will inform them subsequently of the audition pieces, dates, and venue. My email address is adrian@sso.org.sg
Thank you for your help!

Regards,
Adrian Chiang
Senior Orchestra Executive
Singapore Symphony Orchestra
11 Empress Place, Victoria Memorial Hall, S(179558)
Tel: +65 63396861 / Fax: +65 6336 6382 / Hp: +65 91377 045

replies to my tags!

winston: tell gan-ma i'll visit her soon! LOL =D
benji: heyhey, slap urs back you pole.
kelvin: okay, soon! =]]
max: ask and you will be told, aint hiding no shit bro. =]]
jiawei: ahh, u know jiawei, patience is a virtue. =D
tino: yeah i will, you too. be good.
fye: lao ahbeng =..= you didn't read under 'about the boy' ? it's written 19yearsYOUNG!

heart

2006-08-18T03:46:00.000+08:00

for the weak-
hearted, only allows negativity to take control;
willed, gives in to temptations;
faithed, never believes;
mind, invites pessimism;
soul, will be engulfed in eternal darkness.

take control.
listen with your heart.
for i will not be weak.

when the stars didn't shine, stargaze with me.

this thing called love

2006-08-15T20:36:00.000+08:00

faithful.
thats what loving was all about wasn't it.
i'm faithful.

and i love you!
wahaahahahaa.. =]]]]]

replies to my tags

2006-08-15T17:03:00.000+08:00

replies to my tags.

blurpiggy: heh, yeah. i'll try to, you too. take care. =]
Angel: yesyes, i know, suprising. ><
edmund: yeah, worked there for awhile only, and got sacked already haha, nothing new for me.
AARON: =]]]]]]]]]]
jiawei: hah, $10/joke pls. ^^
kelvinANG: heyy =]
shu: thanksthanks. i'll stay strong, you too! see u in rehs.
VAN: uhmm.. ready for?
MYHOTCOUSIN: if people do anything funny, just kick them in the balls la. =D
anana: hey bro, i'll be fine thanks. nothing new, my eyes are easily red when i drink. you take care too, study hard for ur exams!

noise

2006-08-15T01:59:00.000+08:00

yes, the world is too noisy.

the one

2006-08-13T06:11:00.000+08:00

the one that truly cares;
i know who's good to me and who's not;
i know who truly cares for me and who doesn't;
i will live for the people i love and cherish;
reach down to the darkest corners of my heart;
i will feel you guys once again.

some people just have to go.
been given too many 'wake-up calls' lately.
watch me;
i'll be back.

special someone.

2006-08-12T03:28:00.000+08:00

now won't u guys quit bugging me about my special someone?
7 years not for nothing.

SLOW DOWN. we're all crashing.

2006-08-12T02:59:00.000+08:00

in times when we get lost in life and every other advice already seem to fail to work;
it's Him that we should listen to; His teachings will never be wrong.
i'm not a christian, but i do listen to them.

i was just flipping through a holy bible and chanced upon this page;
somehow i'm starting to believe it's meant to be, of all pages.
here's what i'd love to share, especially with my close friends who have too much going on in their lives right now.

ECCLESIASTES 2:7
A Time For Everything

There is a time for everything,
and a season for activity under heaven:

a time to be born and a time to die,
a time to plant and a time to uproot,
a time to kill and a time to heal,
a time to tear down and a time to build,
a time to weep and a time to laugh,
a time to mourn and a time to dance,
a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,

a time to embrace and a time to refrain,
a time to search and a time to give up,
a time to keep and a time to throw away,
a time to tear and a time to mend,
a time to be silent and a time to speak,
a time to love and a time to hate,
a time for war and a time for peace.

Stand in Awe of God
Do not be quick with your mouth,
do not be hasty in your heart
to utter anything before God.
God is in heaven and you are on earth,
so let your words be few.
As a dream comes when there are many cares,
so the speech of a fool when there are many words.

just these enough, made my mind open.
just these enough, made me come to my senses.
just these enough, taught me more than anything else.
cuz everthing happens for a reason.

recent updates

2006-08-11T02:01:00.000+08:00

the pressure is just too overwhelming these days.
i've decided that the only thing that walks beside me now is my shadow.

anyway, my comp crashed; i didn't had the chance to update on time.
but here's to my sunny little island i call home;
happy 41st SINGAPORE. =]]]

because in singapore, singapore the hearts are big and wide you'll find

beacause in singapore, singapore you find happiness(clapclapclap) for everyone........

had my share of fun out clubbing with max, winston, nigel, anavil and dylan.

home: trying clothes on before clubbing;the shirt with 'granny-looking-flowery-prints'.

max wore his turban to the club that night. LOL!

don't kill me for that bro. =]]]

and after; we stayed out till morning to wait for public transport cuz we're all broke fucks.

alright, just cam-whoring a lil. =]

watched 'see no evil' the next day.

i dont even wana talk about it; me and winston were just hiding our faces behind the popcorn container. and benji jumanji seng, heartless-ly sat through the whole show without jumping or freaking out considering the gore-factor. total sickness.

met up with max, nigel and dylan after at suntec. and had more dumb pics taken.

max's breastfeeding session. =]]

alright, thats about all for now guys.

till i blog again.

love.

this boy called derek.

2006-08-11T01:25:00.000+08:00

i just realised that
this boy called derek that i just got to know.
he's my distant-cousin!
and he's funny.
why?

a closer look:

see why i think he's funny ?

now you guys know the purpose of this entry.

alright, just for the fun of it. =D

loves cuzzie.

fuckers

2006-08-08T00:24:00.001+08:00

i don't wish to mention names here;
some people i call friends
should just fuck off from my life.

if you're guilt-stricken after reading this, that's you i'm referring to.
FUCK OFF.
i'm regretting more than ever.

photo updates on botanic garden performance

2006-08-06T04:19:00.000+08:00

here's the superstar; miss cai lilian.
some of us might recall her singing 'guan huai fang shi' (a chinese tvmovie)
with chen han wei.
yepp, thats her in person.
she's too sweet.

and adrian pang too =]]

my disappearance

2006-08-06T03:28:00.000+08:00

here's just to let u guys know,
i wont be able to be online for quite sometime,
am sending my comp for repairs; its too screwed.

good chance for me to get away from everything for awhile too.
take care my friends

love,
bingzhao

the philharmonic youth winds auditions

2006-08-05T21:09:00.000+08:00

if any band member happen to chance upon my blog,
im just rendering my service through my blog to help publicise;
afterall, i was from the band myself.

the philharmonic youth winds is recruiting!

DETAILS:
http://philharmonicyouthwinds.org/audition.htm

it would be greatly appreciated if fellow bandmates could help me out with this. spread the word around.

all for the love of music making.

melts.

2006-08-03T01:50:00.000+08:00

It's funny when you find yourself

Looking from the outside

I'm standing here but all I want

Is to be over there

Why did I let myself believe

Miracles could happen

'Cause now I have to pretend

That I don't really care

[Chorus #1:]I thought you were my fairytale

A dream when I'm not sleeping

A wish upon a star that's coming true

But everybody else could tell

That I confused my feelings

With the truth

When there was me and you

I swore I knew the melody

That I heard you singing

And when you smiled you made me feel

Like I could sing along.

But then you went and changed the words

Now my heart is empty

I'm only left with used-to-be's

And once upon a song

[Chorus #2:]Now I know you're not a fairytale

And dreams were meant for sleeping

And wishes on a star just don't come true

Cause now even I can tell

That I confused my feelings

With the truth

Because I liked the view

When there was me and you

I can't believe

That I could be so blind

It's like you were floating while I was falling

And I didn't mind

Because I liked the view

I thought you felt it too

When there was me and you

so much meaning; it left me breathless.

re-guarding time.

2006-08-03T00:08:00.000+08:00

some people say, that everything has got its place and time, and everything happens for a reason.

its just good or bad.

i personally feel strongly for that; and hope that good things come after the bad.

ppboys.

2006-08-02T02:23:00.000+08:00

see how much matt loves us.

"matt loves his two powerpuffs.the two cranky ones."

sorry matt, i copied it off your blog without permission. maybe you should do something about your drawing skills.

maxzacharychua, i hope u read this.

cuz the both of you still mean alot to me, im just not about to let things go the way they are right now.

you guys have no idea how much i'm missing the both of you, not to mention the times we hang out together and all; cheesecake

i want the both of u back.

3's a team.

birthday babies

2006-07-30T06:07:00.000+08:00

it feels good to meet up with old friends, having a good time together; though it cant quite be compared to what was in the past.
im glad i still have them around.
LOVES =]]

if time could turn back, i would treasure the times i made music with these people; bedokview concertband.
we've braved through heaps of shit and hardwork.
all these memories are deeply etched in my heart.

here's to catherine
HAPPY 21st! (belated though)
i never had a chance to tell you this before, but im really glad i have you as a friend and sister. you taught me alot back in our secondary school days, always knocking me back into my senses when i went astray and all. the way you cared unconditionally and taught me so much; so much that made me the person i am today. not very perfect a person, but i've learnt to treasure so many things because of your words; friendship, relationship, family, morality, dignity.

all for my most respected, most cherished sister.
thank you for your unconditional love, care and concern.

with love,
bingzhao.

just some photos to share;

something else to reminisce upon

concert in the park.

2006-07-29T18:15:00.000+08:00

the philharmonic winds singapore will be presenting a 20-minute program for this event with collaboration with singaporean artist CAI LILIAN.

do drop by if any of you are free.

stagnant

2006-07-29T11:02:00.000+08:00

just after afew days of the creation of my blog
i realised it has became pretty stagnant.
just for the record
im adding this entry right now for the sake of updating.

too much complications
too many mixed emotions
too little compromise
too little understanding

was the faith in each other ever there before?
i really wonder.

thats all my head could handle for now.
i cant take in anymore.

the ppboys

2006-07-25T12:02:00.000+08:00

when we finally had a decent picture together

did i mention how much the two of them mean to me?

now that we're going through a rough patch; i wished we could stay believing in each other.

to monica

im really glad you're around; all the things that u've done for us and being there for us, i really appreciate everything. and for once, the religion-less me really ought to thank God for sending such wonderful people into my life.

I just hope everything blows over real soon and we can be back like the past.

the night sky

2006-07-25T02:15:00.000+08:00

i have never felt this much peace within just sitting at my roof balcony gazing at the stars especially with so much going on at this very point. i really dont know what to do anymore.

interpersonal relations can be so much of a complication. temptations, jealousy, consequences and all that leads after. it's all shitty.
I've been lending my ear out to too much of the same kinda stories, using my heart to try to mend another broken heart. my heart needs a rest, my soul needs a break. i guess sometimes a healer does need healing too.

apologies to people i've neglected. i hope to have ur understanding now as i need it more than ever. maybe i'm just not good enough for anyone, anything. nothing more than disappointment i bring to people.

for once im looking back, back to the days when everything was fine and all's well.
I'm only human.

Cynthia's wedding.

2006-07-24T03:52:00.000+08:00

alright blog noob, here's my first actual entry.

my cousin's wedding
i guess the feeling i experienced during the wedding ceremony was quite mixed because afterall, she's the first one to get married in my generation of the family.
the cousin that played and watched everyone of us grow up is now a 'MRS'; alright, i'll just need time to get used to it, and now i have a new relative! Hah.

alright anyway, the ballroom was pretty nice. damn romantic lighting and deco and all, but one thing i didnt get was; why wasnt the marriage song played when the doors opened for them to enter? something more contemporary or am i just too outdated? ><

here are just some pics i was busy snapping away with my camera:

the HEARTTHROB.

table gifts

rejection :(

the NEWLY-WEDS

cousins

the one that dotes me most; grannydearest. =]]]

acceptance finally. LOL.

complete.

just us

uploading pictures just take too long and i'm pretty sick of waiting already, so here's about all.

complications. everythings in a mess. erase me.

i kept my heart away, safe and locked and never to speak of it again.

For the sake of it.

2006-07-24T03:45:00.001+08:00

THIS IS MY VERY FIRST ENTRY.
BLOG SET UP THANKS TO AARON.
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